Monday, 11 May 2015

Week 1

Week 1 is done and dusted.
I have mixed feelings about this first week.
On the eating side of things I was very good (apart from Saturday but we will get into that), but I didn't work out once. I need to try and fit it into my busy lifestyle, plus working shifts doesn't help.
As I said before I ate very well this week. I had a cheeky weigh in on Friday and I'd lost 4lbs howevet in Saturday I went to a wedding and drank rather a lot of alcohol and when I weighed myself this morning (my official weigh in) I'd gained 2lbs. So over all I've lost 2lbs this week. I am happy about this and I obivoisly cannot put my life on hold, drinking and parties will happen as long as I live healthy the rest of the week I'm fine with that.

This week my aim is to slowly bring in some exercise and continue to eat healthy.


Tuesday, 5 May 2015

The truth...

Looking back on my post from yesterday I realised that I put across this sense that I would do this without problems... I had decided I was going to change my life and therefore it would happen and happen easily.
But that is far from the case...
I know this is going to be difficult. I know at times I'm going to stumble and fall, as I have done before. But what makes this time different is that I am fully aware of this. I know that some days I will want to chew my own arm off for a boost bar or a bag of crisps. Or that I will go out and have fun and drink and maybe sometimes eat some bad food, BUT it's what I do about it that counts.
So ive decided that on those days where I would kill for some bad fats I wil distract myself, I will clean, I will polish my toe nails, I will work out etc. I will also allow myself those nights with my friends but I will treat the aftermath differently. I won't go and buy everything in sight the next day and sit and stuff my face for hours.
Basically i will stumble and fall, but rather than staying down and berating myself for the mistakes I make, I will pick myself back up again and congratulate myself for doing so. I will be gentle on myself. But most of all I will be honest with myself. I truly think this is the way I come out of this sane and healthy.


Monday, 4 May 2015

So this is is, DAY 1!

Yesterday I watched my partner and thousands of other people take part in the Liverpool Spring 10k, and the whole time (despite being happy for him) I was miserable. I felt I had let him down, let my daughter down and most importantly let myself down. You might be wondering why, let me tell me about myself...
I'm 27, a nurse, a fiance and a mummy to a beautiful 20 month old girl. For the majority of my my life I've been over weight. When I was 24 I decided enough was enough, I wanted to enjoy my 20's so I joined slimming world. Over the course of 11 months I lost just over 4 stone, going from a size 20 to a size 12. I was so happy, even though I wasn't at my target I was getting there.
Everything was going great but then I was dealt horrible news. I was diagnosed with severe endometriosis and was told that if I left it any longer to have a baby my chances would be slim to none, so we decided to try for a baby. Luckily I was pregnant very quickly. During my pregnancy I didn't stick to healthy eating, partly because vegetables and fruit made me want to vomit but mainly because I used the old saying 'eating for two'. I put 3 stone of the 4 that I had lost because of this thinking.
Over the past twenty months I have tried several times to lose that weight, at one point I had lost 2 stone of it, but then promptly put it back on, citing working shifts and looking after the baby as an excuse. And that's all it was AN EXCUSE. an excuse to be lazy, an excuse to do what I wanted.
But yesterday was the slap in the face that I needed. I've decided I'm going to be the person my partner deserves, my daughter deserves and more importantly that I deserve. I deserve to be healthy, I deserve to treat my body right and I deserve to be happy.
Now look away if you're squeamish, these are not pretty pictures...

These pictures show the stark reality of unhealthy eating. of laziness. Of not protecting yourself. And that is exactly what I am going to do from now on PROTECT myself.

Oh and just for an added kick up the arse I've signed up for next years London marathon.

Thanks for listening. Any support or advice that people have to other is most welcome.

Stacey xx